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EVERY TIME I START A CONVERSATION
Words by Bill White - Music by Mark M Scullion ©2023
Every time I start a conversation
You take it out of control
Before the first sentence is out of my mouth
You have attacked every syllable
Stubborn and cantankerous
Bull-headed, thick rhinocerous
No commonality, no rapport
I cant hold a conversation with you any more
Your brain is in remission
So you give yourself permission
Maybe if you were muted
You wouldnt sound so stupid
Every time I start a conversation
You take it out of control
Before the first sentence is out of my mouth
You have attacked every syllable
Stubborn and cantankerous
Bull-headed, thick rhinocerous
No commonality, no rapport
I cant hold a conversation with you any more
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iner Notes
This is a cheerleading song to get us all sitting in our chairs welcoming what arises. Anthony Trollope suggested cobbler's tack to stick a writer to the chair as the secret to becoming an author. He wrote three pages every morning, which is what Julia Cameron suggests in The Artist's Way - though Trollope's went right into an envelope, and Cameron suggests never reading them or letting anyone else read them.
Anyone (and everyone) is welcome to make music for this one, since it feels like a message we all need to hear in our own voices.
#meta #needs_collab #collaborations_welcome #needs_music #artists_way #inspiration #how_to
Lyrics
Stick You to a Chair
You can write your morning pages
You can buy yourself some paint
You can magic marker sticky notes
You can stick them where they ain’t
You can make your affirmations
You can stick 'em everywhere
But sooner or later, you’re gonna have to stick your self - - - to your chair
Yeah, sooner or later you’re gonna have to stick your self - - - to your chair
Can you sit there
Are you too afraid to choke
Can you sit there
Let your muses take a smoke
Can you sit there
Can you sing
Can you sit there
Can you write
Can you sit there while you’re sure it is never gonna be all right
While you write your morning pages
When you buy yourself some paint
While you magic marker sticky notes
When you stick 'em where they ain’t
While you make your affirmations
When you stick 'em everywhere
When sooner or later, you finally stick your self - - - to your chair
Yeah, sooner or later you’re gonna have to stick your self - - - to your chair
Cause you can’t make art by meaning to
You can’t make it by making plans
So go on settle down
Let's see just how much sitting you can stand 
Go on sit there
Don't be too afraid to choke
Go on sit there
Let those muses take a smoke
Go on sit there
You can sing
Go on sit there
You can write
If you can sit there, I can promise you it's all gonna be all right
So write your morning pages
Open your new paint
Magic marker your sticky notes
Stick them whereever they ain’t
Make your affirmations
And now stick 'em everywhere
Sooner or later, you're gonna learn how to stick your self - - - to your chair
Yeah, sooner and later, keep learning how to stick your self - - - to your chair
©Lyrics Nancy Cunningham July 2023
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Where I come up short
You stand tall
Where you hit your stride
I get smashed against the wall
But that doesn’t mean
You can hang it all on me
You punch the buzzer on the bed
Don’t do a steppin’ thing
I'm sorry for the layin’ hens
Sorry for the cattle herd
I'm sorry I can't grow things
I ain't what you deserved
I'm sorry that I’m lazy
Too soon, run out of gas
I'm sorry for the little chicks
And I'm sorry for my sorry ass
I know I ain't much good at plantin’
Ain't much good at balin’ hay
I don't know much about cattle
I can't seem to find my way
Some say there are secrets to it
Well, none's been told to me
‘Cause I ain't good at growin’
Even our children would agree
I'm sorry for the layin’ hens
Sorry for the cattle herd
I'm sorry I can't grow things
I ain't what you deserved
I'm sorry that I’m lazy
Too soon, run out of gas
I'm sorry for the little chicks
And I'm sorry for my sorry ass
But when you tell me to close the window
(Do you know how petty that is)
When you complain I ate the cornflakes
(Do you know how petty that is)
Then you tell me that I sing loud
(Do you know how petty that is)
When you blame me for something you forgot
(Do you know how petty that is)
You tell me that I’m idle
When I’ve been at my desk all day
And didn’t get around
To goin’ out and bailin’ any hay
You say my work is meaningless
Because it means nothing to you
Sorry I’m such a flop
But so goes the words of truth
I'm sorry for the layin’ hens
Sorry for the cattle herd
I'm sorry I can't grow things
I ain't what you deserved
I'm sorry that I’m lazy
Too soon, run out of gas
I'm sorry for the little chicks
And I'm sorry for my sorry ass
But when you tell me to close the window
(Do you know how petty that is)
When you complain I ate the cornflakes
(Do you know how petty that is)
Then you tell me that I sing loud
(Do you know how petty that is)
When you blame me for something you forgot
(Do you know how petty that is)
I don't keep good records
I hate to clean the stalls
Ain't good at pert’ near nothin’
I'm sorry I've dropped the ball
And where I come up short
You stand tall
Where you hit your stride
I get smashed against the wall
I'm sorry for the layin’ hens
Sorry for the cattle herd
I'm sorry I can't grow things
I ain't what you deserved
I'm sorry that I’m lazy
Too soon, run out of gas
I'm sorry for the little chicks
And I'm sorry for my sorry ass
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A Singer, Not A Fighter
02:58
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VERSE
the roads are getting longer
and there are fewer stops between
everything is slowing down
or maybe its just me
VERSE
but i have crossed two statelines
since i packed up my gear
tonight ill sing my songs again
in some backwater joint round here
CHORUS
the crowds are getting thinner
the moneys getting lighter
i could have pushed a little harder
but ive always been a singer, not a fighter
VERSE
they danced to my music
sang along with my rhymes
but my name was never big enough
to stand the test of time
VERSE
but i earn enough to get myself
and my van to the next gig
and theres always someone who remembers me
from the days when i was big
BRIDGE
i know now i will never be
the next haggard or george jones
but ive written my share of honest songs
in a voice that was my own
VERSE
but if i didnt have this old guitar
and a voice that can still hold a tune
i would turn the page and fade away
like the phases of the moon
CHORUS
the crowds are so much thinner
the moneys so much lighter
i could still push a little harder
but ill always be a singer not a fighter
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it was a typical sunday
at the shakerag general store
i sang a buttload of songs
then another buttload more
a circle pf pickers
were backing me up
then along came jones
saying, "sorry to interupt"
but that song you are playing
used to be a country song
you got the words right
but your singing it wrong
then he took the guitar
right out of my hands
and when he started to sing
i knew id lost my band
so i got in my pinto
and headed back to atoka
the radio was playing
some old hokey polka
i reached under my seat
popped open a corrs
and the next thing i knew
i was flung out the door
i must have hit a opossum
or a hole in the road
i flew through the air
to the ground i was throwed
my whole world went black
it was the end of the session
when i opened my eyes
i was in songwriters heaven
there was jerry jeff walker
george jones and john prine
cole porter and gershwin
bacharach and sondheim
mia zapata and dory previn
and lefty frizzell
townes and tim hardin
laura nyro and thom bell
but with all these songwriters
something was wrong
nobody was singing
there was nary a song
so i took a deep breath
and sang mama tried
then merle haggard cut loose
with jenny take a ride
mitch ryder started vamping
on blueberry hill
fats domino was dancing
buddy holly stood still
then sang pancho and lefty
george jones sang along
soon everyone was singing
somebody elses song
guy clark sang bad girls
then donna summer sang
hanging around the water tank
waiting for a train
then i heard a voice on the radio
and i opened up my eyes
i was in a ditch off 51
lucky to be alive
i guess of all my seven lives
i just used number seven
next time it will not be a dream
ill be in songwriter heaven
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I can remember years ago
A preacher made me cry
He said heaven's such a happy place
The blues end when we die
If there ain't no blues in heaven
Then I dont wanna go
Close the gates for heavens sakes
Cuz this boy says hell no
So where is Hound Dog Taylor?
And where is BB King?
Bunk me with Muddy Waters
You can give us our own wing
What about Jimi Hendrix?
And where's Stevie Ray Vaughn?
Where's old Sophie Tucker?
I wanna hear her songs
Pass the word to Saint Peter
That blues is all I know
And if there aint no blues in heaven
Then I don't wanna go
There ain't no blues in heaven?
That means no Fred McDowell?
Ain't no Lightning Hopkins?
It sounds a bit like hell
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For years I roamed through sullen fields
Not knowing Ii was dead
Living out my lifetime dreams
Inside my broken head
Until one day in the month of \may
A messenger arrived
To say I must marry a living man
If I were to survive
And so I roamed the city streets
In search of such a person
Who would bring me back to life
Before my situation worsened.
For still I had the form of life
Though my insides had rotted
And i could pass for one alive
Although my guts had clotted
I found him as he searched for me
Entangled in a dream
From which poured images of verse
Into vanishing streams
I dared not wake this living man
Nor lie down by his side
Instead I joined him in his dream
And there became his bride
And with his kiss I was made whole
And found life everlasting
In dreams there is no first or last
No vacant shadows passing
We are as solid as the land
As fluid as the ocean
Life in death or death in life
Such antiquated notions
He is a breathing dreamer
And I the dreamers breath
He somehow has cheated life
While I have cheated death
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Outrageous Marilyn
02:41
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i head downtown at six in the morning
the show doesnt start until eight at night
but i want to beat the traffic
ill feed the gulls down at the waterfront
then read for a few hours at cafe paradise
before catching an early matinee on third avenue
ill have a mid day meal at the market
where my girlfriends dad sells fried chicken
and she takes a break while i eat
if its thursday ill go to a museum
thats the day admission is free
and there are plenty of comfortable places to sit
ill walk through the arboretum
look at trees from around the world
think about the days i used to come here and drop acid with my friends
but sometimes i just want to go to the laundromat
see if outrageous marilyn is sitting in the big dryer
drop in a coin and watch her spin
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Stuck
03:32
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A flight was slated to leave
On christmas Eve
But that departure
Was canceled in July
Now there are no plaes going anywhere
And the only roads going out of here are in the sky
And even if I could
I have no place to go
the dust has fallen everywhere
Ad the raini cant seem
To wash away the snow
You find yourself inside a room
Wihout amy doors
You are not stick anywhere
Until you dont want to be there any more
Until you dont want to be there any more
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I Drew a Map
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i was standing on a sheet of ice
i was standing on a sheet oif sand
i didnt know where i was
so i drew a map
i drew a map with everything on it
but despite the marks i made
that map remained empty
so i removed the lids from my eyes
could not look left could not look right
si i looked up into the vacant skies
patched my eyes and took a nap
then i drew a map
i drew borders and time lines
departure times for airlines
i drew billboards and mileage markers
maps for bikers and sad hitch hikers
i drew streets of movie theatres
and the strip malls in between
the freeways and the parking lots
and drive in movie screens
valleys and mountains and alleys
cities without limits or signs
in the end there was nothing
but sheets of sand and ice
i drew a map and there was nothing on it
empty spaces between exit ramps
meaningless lines connecting places
with pieces of glass from broken street lamps
i drew a map and threw everything on it
suitcases filled with tourists dreams
but the map was as empty as i had found it
in the blank paper trash of yesterday
i drew people and places and methods of travel
there was no place to go and no way to get there
my map was as empty as the things i drew on it
it amounted to nothing and i diidnt care
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love is a moment of truth
when you decide to save someone else
instead of trying to save yourself
hate is the father of lies
born of the moment when true love dies
seeing each other with false eyes
"how could you do this to me?' she asks
"how could you do this to me?" he replies
there is a remant of truth in both of their lies
but life is filled with suffering
dont blame your hardships on someone else
because love is a moment of truth
no wrong done on either side
in a moment of truth, none can hide
love is a moment of truth
unending truth does not bend
only haters will play "let's pretend'
when two people love one another
but marry others they hate to save mother and father
who will stand for the truth at the wedding
and say the father of hate made their bedding
haters will tear you apart
will inject their poison into your heart
by hatred we are so misused
then love comes in a moment of truth
an unending moment of truth
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Only the Fallen
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Speak by command not incantation
Any kook can imitate gobble d gook or footnote notation
But when the ides of march meet the winds of august
The truth of the story is told by only the fallen
Only the fallen who sing in the fire
Those who are still standing are cowards and liars
From the pulpits they speak like rodents they squeak
To the congregation not by command not by Gods hand
But through incantation
The dead salute no more in triangular columns
The truth of the story is told by only the fallen
Only the fallen still sing in the grass
That covers the bodies of those who still pass
Prophesy and interpretation debased to incantation
The wind that fills them is base and common
The truth of the story is told by only the fallen
And after the dirt of your life is thrown over your coffin
You will find there were never any heroes there was only the fallen
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COMPLIANCE
we dont want talent
we dont want brains
we want people who will say
it is sunny when it's gray
we want compliance
we are not looking for charisma
or exceptional looks
we want a livng, breathing carcass
we can hang on a hook
we want compliance
we dont want a martyr
we dont want a saint
we dont want advice
we dont want complaints
we want compliance
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One Man Woman
03:51
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i left the bar at closing time
with dolly and my best friend.
we drove across town to her house
she invited both of us in
she took my friend into the bedroom
said i could sleep in the rocking chair
half an hour later she was on me
moving like a grizzly bear
chorus
i was the last of her one-night stands
she was turning a new leaf
she had fallen pretty low before
but she really hit bottom with me
she had been passed
through too many hands
but i was the last
of her one-night stands
she built a fire out in the woods
and burned all her dirty sheets
along with the witch of winter
to make her pledge complete
she took out a piece of paper
and put it to the flame
and on that piece of paper
she had written out my name
repeat chorus
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Ah broken is the golden bowl! the spirit flown forever!
Let the bell toll!--a saintly soul floats on the Stygian river;
And, Guy De Vere, hast thou no tear?--weep now or never more!
See! on yon drear and rigid bier low lies thy love, Lenore!
Come! let the burial rite be read--the funeral song be sung!--
An anthem for the queenliest dead that ever died so young--
A dirge for her the doubly dead in that she died so young.
"Wretches! ye loved her for her wealth and hated her for her pride,
"And when she fell in feeble health, ye blessed her--that she died!
"How shall the ritual, then, be read?--the requiem how be sung
"By you--by yours, the evil eye,--by yours, the slanderous tongue
"That did to death the innocent that died, and died so young?"
Peccavimus; but rave not thus! and let a Sabbath song
Go up to God so solemnly the dead may feel so wrong!
The sweet Lenore hath "gone before," with Hope, that flew beside
Leaving thee wild for the dear child that should have been thy bride--
For her, the fair and debonair, that now so lowly lies,
The life upon her yellow hair but not within her eyes--
The life still there, upon her hair--the death upon her eyes.
"Avaunt! to-night my heart is light. No dirge will I upraise,
"But waft the angel on her flight with a Pæan of old days!
"Let no bell toll!--lest her sweet soul, amid its hallowed mirth,
"Should catch the note, as it doth float up from the damnéd Earth.
"To friends above, from fiends below, the indignant ghost is riven--
"From Hell unto a high estate far up within the Heaven--
"From grief and groan, to a golden throne, beside the King of Heaven."
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